These days everything is a sign or a message to be truly noted and integrated into my life. It’s been a little while since I’ve written and the deepening of my connection to spirit and heart has expanded to yet another level. I write these blogs to understand what is going on with my own spiritual evolution, and how it connects to changes happening in our universal evolution. Only about 2 months ago did I come to understand that my own cycles of understanding and confusion (or birth and death and rebirth as I also see it) are connected to something greater than myself. For a time, I considered it to be all about spiritual understanding of the great unknown, the void where everything and nothing lives. I felt peaceful in this place of knowingness. Today, everything has shifted again.
Recently, I recounted to a friend how in the last year I have moved quickly through several phases of emotional and spiritual awareness. It wasn’t until I did so that I could see the intelligence and completeness of my path. I can summarize these experiences into distinct phases:
- Detachment and loss where I surrendered to what I couldn’t control;
- Personal power and my human potential where I experienced a great opening to the possibilities of myself and for all of us;
- The desire for freedom-my true self was calling to me louder and louder and didn’t allow me to ignore that I have a purpose here on Earth that I must perform; I needed to allow it to speak and live now; and
- Today, universal love and compassion, which is revealing itself to me with a softness and loving touch I can only walk towards with great enthusiasm.
My friend said to me, ‘What a perfect unfolding.’ And this is what brought forth the intelligent rationality in what seems like such a bizarre, strange trip. I’d heard that word before in a meditation where I was told that what is happening to humanity and Earth right now is “The Unfolding.” I understood then that it meant the unfolding of who we were as humanity (the destruction and unhealthy ways in which we’ve lived) to a new way that is about harmony and love. I see now that as the whole of humanity learns from our mistakes, each of us is also learning how to make a new life. Some of us are experiencing this shift by force (losing jobs, unbalanced lifestyles, disease, etc.) and others who already were awake to the changing course of humanity are making the leap because they see the choices clearly. This is ‘The Unfolding’, and we are both witness to it and participants in it.
My own path clearly demonstrates that I’m a participant. I find great solace in this and know that I simply have to remain aware and respond to the signs. I don’t actually create my unfolding. It will happen on its own. How I experience it is my decision.
And so now how did this new phase of loving and compassion begin? Unlike some of the other phases of spiritual awakening that I have experienced, this one comes with great joy and great pain. I’ve spent several weeks feeling the great pain of my life and everyone else’s. I cry when I do yoga, I release the layers of built up pain and sorrow easily now. And I welcome it! I can feel the healing that is happening inside and around me. The release of pain literally comes in waves now. I’m learning to surf the waves rather than attempting to control them. And great things are happening!
But first some background information. Throughout my process of unfolding, I’ve discovered new ways of seeing and knowing that I never fully utilized before. One of them is my intuition, which at times has been what we might call psychic. I’ve learned that being psychic doesn’t mean predicting the future. Rather, when we tapped into our 3rd eye chakra (the energetic node at our eyebrows) we gain an understanding of knowing without a doubt of what is. We can even hear messages that aren’t our own voice but the voice of the great knowing that lies beyond ourselves.
For me, this period of opening to the greater wisdom that lies beyond my mere self, represented a transition from dreaming of a new reality to actually waking up in one. If you’ve read earlier blogs, you know that most of my awareness and understanding has come through dreams that then manifest in my waking life. Today, the experiences are almost the opposite, in my waking state I can live with the spiritual realm while I’m working out the earth realm in my dreams.
This new place has led to some rather unusual experiences that I find almost difficult to share because of their strangeness. It was a lot easier to speak about my new awareness when they came from dreams as we all have such experiences. My ego wants to assure each of you that I haven’t gone off the deep end, and this all did happen. Hopefully, by sharing it with you, it will open in you a new space for understanding and a new way of discovering it beyond your ego and rational mind. I can tell you that when you do open that doorway, you will find a whole new world of capacities that can guide you in your life.
The first thing that happened was seeing an angelic woman in my mind’s eye (one time with my eyes open and another in a deep meditation). The first time I saw her, I dismissed it as nothing, fantasy or mind creation. But when it happened a second time, I decided to be really open minded that maybe it was real. I had read somewhere that people who see guides and angels (my only reference for what this could possibly be) sometimes channel their messages through free writing. It turned out to be really easy. I just did it. And this is the message she sent:
Your true spirit is perfect and divine. It contains all things and will always provide. Abundance is your birthright and it is connected to spirit-the all knowing, everything. There is sweetness in life that can be drunken everyday with or without the flowers. Clouds will have mercy when the sky is abominable. In the truth lays the answers to yourself. Find it in the virtues of personal love, beauty, peace, universal love, wisdom, and self-not.
Days after this message surfaced I began to see how I had ignored the importance of true love–love that doesn’t want or expect anything. There is nothing that warrants holding back love, and when we do, we only hurt ourselves and prevent universal love from filling our hearts.
I sat for a meditation several days after I was delivered this message, and I was filled with a soft red light. I felt my whole being rise and fall softly with the waves of pink light as if I was floating on the clouds of heaven. Peace came over me like I had never experienced before. An image of Ghandi came to my mind’s eye, then Martin Luther King, followed by Jesus and Buddha (whom by the way was one with Jesus; they weren’t not shown to me as separate beings). I asked them, to show me how they experienced universal love and compassion. For a moment, I felt it through them. And, then, a lighthearted, kind voice said, ‘but you don’t need us, feel it yourself.’ Ah, yes, that was the ticket. Of course, it’s up to each of us to unfold the universal love and compassion for all things that already lives in us.
And then, a new message and wave of understanding hit. This one was huge! It brought everything together for me from my beginning struggles starting my own business, healing from the wounds of working for an energetically dysfunctional institution and discovering my soul purpose.
Here is what I received:
How to earn money in the new economic (and energetic) paradigm
Money earned, transferred and loved with integrity and truth of spirit, inner self, is a loving circle. It cycles back what is truth in action, what is the truth in the love, truth in the knowing. Money earned, transferred and loved with your true self will cycle, cycle and grow. It is a circle, an infinite cycle in fact, that will continue in harmony with the intention of its creation and quality of love. How do you love what you create, do and perform? What would you wish upon yourself to cycle back forever? Give with pure intention. Don’t overdue, do that which meets your capacity and truest desire.
I’m sitting with this one for awhile. I’m waiting for greater guidance because I understand that there is a momentous tide behind these words. An economy based on love, beauty, peace and wisdom (as my guide/angel informed me) would change everything. I believe we are on this precipice. How it will transform us we can only imagine, but it is a beautiful waiting period we’re in.
So, now what? I’m waiting, I’m releasing the pain and sorrow, I’m peaceful with each wave and wide-eyed curious about EVERYTHING. I’ve learned that even the littlest thing can carry a message from the divine. I pay attention to what speaks to me and what work I need to do to transform myself and this beautiful planet. There is so much power to be unleashed in our divinity that I know we are in for a great experience. If The Unfolding brings the sweetness of flowers everyday (even in the dead of winter in New England), I welcome it with my open heart and singing spirit.
