I’m moving in 2 weeks. This is a move that was planned rather shortly and spontaneously. My fiancee and I thought it would be nice to symbolize our marriage by making a new home. When we made the decision I didn’t see the larger picture at work. Now, I’m gaining glimpses of it. I’m being reminded of two crucial pieces of wisdom:
1. There is always a bigger picture at work in our lives even when we cannot see it. This bigger picture moves us towards love, happiness and spiritual heights.
2. We cannot skip steps in our path to spiritual awakening and living our purpose. Each step, or moment, contains a lesson or connection that we need to understand the bigger picture of our lives.
I love when I catch a glimpse of the bigger picture. It helps me to feel assured that there is one and that I am being guided along the way from a higher source.
This quote from Deepak Chopra in the Third Jesus sums up the experience I’m talking about:
The soul journey begins in the darkness, where truth is masked or misunderstood. The journey progresses by clearing away an obstacle to the truth every day. At times we make leaps into the light, great bounds that free us from the grip of an ignorant belief. More often, however, revelation proceeds by tiny steps, one insight at a time.
My journey began in the darkness of lossing the security of a relationship. Years ago when my fiancee and I first started dating, we came across a rocky patch in our relationship.
To spare you the details, I will only say that this wasn’t an ordinary relationship concern. It was big! We both suffered tremendously.
Yet, it was a tremendous moment for me. I first found my way to the light under these extra-ordinary conditions. I didn’t want to suffer anymore and prayed and pleaded for things to change.
I began to meditate, do yoga and simply changed the way I lived.
The turning point for me came when I had a dream. It was really simple. I dreamed of a big body of water basking in the dawn of a soft violet light. I swam from one shore to the other. I walked up onto the shore and felt peaceful and serene.
I woke up feeling awesome. All of the pain and fear I had felt the night before (and for months!) had dissolved. It was like something got turned on inside of me.
I know now that it was God. It was my inner spirit. It was my true heart space.
I just knew then and there that everything was going to be fine.
A little while ago I had two experiences that brought me right back to that dream. The first was I was walking around a big reservoir. I walked up to the water’s edge, I felt this incredible energy in my heart. It was the energy of the water swaying in my heart. I’d never felt that before in my waking life. I always loved being by a big body of water (probably for that reason), but never actually felt it.
I could feel the connection to oneness and the universal heart. Water, I’ve realized, allows me to feel that without even trying. I enjoyed the moment and let it be.
A few days later while lying in corpse pose at the end of a yoga class, I saw a flash of the dream I had years ago. I was swimming up to the shore feeling peaceful and serene.
I’ve learned that one of the laws of the universe is that signs come in three’s. Some call this synchronicity. I had my three signs so I was taking note.
I knew there was a much deeper awareness that I was to understand by seeing that dream I had some 7 years later. The physical experience of standing by the reservoir pointed it out to me clearly.
My fiancee and I are moving to the biggest body of water there is, the ocean. We are getting married this summer and will begin our unified life together on the shore of the ocean. For us, it’s the completion of a healing cycle that will sanctify our new journey together.
But there’s more. As my path out of the darkness has lead me to see the specks of light along the way, my path is getting brighter. What began for me with a heart ache is transforming quickly now into my heart opening to a much wider sea of possibility.
I’ve found my way to the shore! I didn’t even know that I was on my way. I can see the horizon now where closure and beginning at the cusp of dawn awaits. It’s here, on this shore, that I will understand the new heights that I am to walk.
Each of us is walking, sometimes with a torchlight and sometimes without a light at all, towards our heart opening. All we have to do is notice when the next step arrives and take it. Bon voyage!
